It seems that the closer I come to completing this semester the more I procrastinate and put off the work, dreading to just sit down and do it. It doesn't help either that one of my professors has never deducted marks for late work. So the paper that was due yesterday is only getting some attention now, and hopefully (fingers crossed) will be handed in tomorrow.

At this point in the year, with school fading away for a couple weeks ( or at least the prospect of it), I am getting right into the Christmas spirit. Carols are playing on the radio, and all I want to do is shop, bake and decorate. All of which I'll be doing this weekend when Memere comes for a visit! I am very excited to see her, and I am so happy that she will be with us for Christmas. Losing two grandparents in one year is really tough, and it will definitely make me appreciate this holiday season much more than I might have. I'm looking forward to our big family dinner more than anything. The gifts and festivities are merely sidenotes to this event. If anyone wants any home made cookies and treats let me know, as Memere will be summoned to my kitchen for a baking day, and I certainly will not be eating all that we produce. Heads up: she makes amazing peanut butter balls and various squares of gooey sugary goodness.

My camera is sitting on my desk looking lonely, and making me feel guilty about not taking any pictures recently. I realized today that I barely have any pictures of myself from this year, most likely because I've felt so uncomfortable with my body, and it's so much easier to erase digital pictures than tangible developed ones. But anyway, now I don't have any to refer to for this time in my life. Makes me want to start taking tons of pics so that when I look back in however many years I won't be too disappointed.

I just want to read and sit around. But my guilt and shame for not doing my work prevents me from it. So I'll sit and peck around on my computer ever so often typing a sentence for my paper and, eventually, sometime soon, it will get done.