Finally some sort of effort on my part to keep this thing updated. Lately I suppose I've been off in my own little mindset daydreaming, and imagining where this young woman is going. I am definately not in the postion I thought I would be if you had asked me where Id be a year ago. But I suppose you can never really plan your life out. It has been the unexpected decisions I've found that make things more exciting. Sometimes I think that I would never want to go back to school, and immediately after this thought, never failing, I always think that I must finish, becuase I promised myself some time ago, during some moment of contemplation, that i wouldn't spend my adulthood working at minimum wage jobs, just getting by. Aren't I supposed to know what I want by now? Am I not supposed to have made these important decisions? I know one thing that I truly would like right now, at this moment, without a doubt, and that is to be closer to those people who mean so much to me. I've said it before, but truly, phonecalls can only do so much. I saw Todd for a brief fraction of time while I was in Toronto, and I was so excited. It was an unexpected surprise, and for me a treat because I didn't expect to see him again until maybe the summer. It felt weird to be with him and not have Tara right along with us. I miss you guys so much. Maybe you don't realize, but you give me so much strength and purpose. Work is holding me here, and thats about it. Why I am not more determined and adventurous to leave this place, I don't know. I've thought about going back home, but don't want to get myself caught in the little town I was so anxious to leave. heh, funny how it's on my days off that I think so much about these things, and make what could have been a wonderful day one filled with me trying to distract myself from my own thoughts with things like tv, the computer, and reading.
Anyway, at least I updated right?
Dope.